《印度之行的阅读笔记》勤劳的朱妞妞

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　　M的这话我怎么听出嫉妒的味道？是反击那个抽烟梗么？
　　M的意思是，还是要F好好保护自己的名誉的。
　　"It is because you can say and feel such a remark as that, that I show you the photograph," said Aziz gravely.
　　F体会到M的关心了哦
　　"It is beyond the power of most men. It is because you behave well while I behave badly that I show it you. I never expected you to come back just now when I called you. I thought, 'He has certainly done with me完了; I have insulted侮辱 him.' Mr. Fielding, no one can ever realize how much kindness we Indians need, we do not even realize it ourselves. But we know when it has been given. We do not forget, though we may seem to. Kindness, more kindness and even after that more kindness. I assure you it is the only hope."
　　Kindness其实指的是爱吧

　　"It's beginning at the wrong end, isn't it?
　　这句话好难，我完全不懂。译者说意思是，一开始就错了。
　　M继续说I know, but institutions and the governments don't." He looked again at the photograph. The lady faced the world at her husband's wish and her own, but how bewildering she found it, the echoing contradictory world!
　　译者理解是矛盾。
　　我理解是M本来向着世界探索的，但是却发现世界令自己困惑，而且回声/反馈与自己所期望的相反。
　　这里倒是出现了“回声”了。
　　M确实，太想呵护F, 却越是这样，越是伤到F。

　　"Put her away, she is of no importance, she is dead," said Aziz gently. "I showed her to you because I have nothing else to show. You may look round the whole of my bungalow now and empty everything. I have no other secrets, my three children live away with their grandmamma and that is all."
　　这与外婆住在一起的三个孩子还真是让我不清楚是谁啊。

　　He'd been in love, engaged to be married, lady broke it off, memories of her and thoughts about her had kept him from other women for a time; then indulgence放纵, followed by repentance悔恨 and equilibrium平静.
　　Meager贫乏 really except the equilibrium平静 and Aziz didn't want to have that confided to向 him he would have called it "everything ranged coldly on shelves."
　　这里到底是指AZ不想展示曾经的风流还是AZ不想被F/M展示曾经的风流？
　　译者选的是前者，嗯，前者吧。前文说的都是F/M的心里。
　　但曾经放纵的肯定是F，这两句说得都是F吧。
　　被冷冷的放在架子上的这种说法，大概指的是F对自己曾经风流的沉默？

　　Aziz after another silence said, "Why you are not married?"