《印度之行的阅读笔记》勤劳的朱妞妞

27、第 27 章

　　译文是一周年，有点奇怪。
　　看后文，这里Aziz/M。

　　She had died soon after he had fallen in love with her; he had not loved her at first.
　　M的妻子F刚与M真正相爱，但很快就死了。
　　一开始说M没有爱他，这纯粹是M撒谎。M是洞悉到了你的退缩，所以不肯承认爱你，笨F。

　　Touched by Western feeling, he disliked union同盟 with a woman whom he had never seen; moreover, when he did see her, she disappointed him and he begat为…之生父his first child in mere animality动物性.
　　那么我开始怀疑Aziz这里的身份了。这种话F自己是绝对说不出来的。想到M，这话倒是跟天足里Abbot撒谎说有孩子后才爱Gino倒是无比相似。
　　昏倒，这谎从1904撒到1924，居然20年都没有被发现，40多岁的F依然被蒙在鼓里，真是让人厥倒。。。。

　　----F相信了M撒谎。
　　而且我大概知道了第一个孩子的出生时间了。应该就是在Phillip去阻止Lilia，Gino结婚的时候，M那个时候也算是无所不用其极了。能做的都做了，但就是等不到F开口为两人的未来做打算。M绝望了呢。又不愿意向F承认自己深爱，所以就只能撒谎了。因为在M看来，只有后来的Gino的坚持，才让自己看到了F的深爱。所以只肯承认后来才爱的F。

　　The change began after its birth. He was won by her love for him, by a loyalty
　　这句话是天足的提示了。在F眼里，M被自己感动了。笨F，只有你相信他的谎言。

　　Sensuous感官上的 enjoyment well, even if he had had it, it would have dulled减轻缓和 in a year and he had gained something instead, which seemed to increase the longer they lived together.
　　得到的是爱。

　　She became the mother of a son...and in giving him a second son she died. Then he realized what he had lost and that no woman could ever take her place;
　　仔细看了一下，嗯，第一个孩子恐怕真的就是指天足里夭折的那个男孩。我想起了圣子的那个梗。所以第一个孩子是男孩。
　　在孕育第二个男孩的时候，妻子死去了。联系后文照片梗，指的是长旅中的Gerald。
　　这里的省略号怪怪的，难道当中有一个女孩？不懂

　　he mourned哀悼 his wife the more sincerely because he mourned her seldom.
　　这是嘲讽M的话了。

　　我大概懂了，在F眼里，当初自己的loyalty比顺从更好地感动了M，所以M被自己的勇气折服。所以怀念并深爱过去的自己。